Blog's New Look, and School

Ok so I wanted a new look to my Blog, the purple and the other elements were boring me, and probably people who visited it too! lol. But by time I had gotten the layout and edited to try and get the wonderful orange banner off the top of the page, I was beginning to get discouraged from writing. So i just left it alone, and decided to write. And now because I do have the new layout, I have to go back and put my gadget's back where they were. Fun! But I've just been thinking about school lately, and how I am really ready for it to begin. It's like a new start, and a option to redeem myself from all the mistakes I made freshman year. I consider myself, wiser, stronger, and way more understanding, way more. My goal is to make the most of this year, by being involved. That is always the best way to make the most, in my opinion. You have many possibilities with meeting new people that may open the door to new opportunities. I'm part of GSU's First Talk Show "The Express Lane" and this year is a good year to make the changes we didn't have the time to do last semester. I hope that I can make some ground, before I decide to go to Florida. Florida is classified only three people know about this...ie. Mom, Dad and Ex...unfortunately for the Ex he didn't take that well, but that's a story for another day! This year I just want to focus on me, considering last year I gave my life away, to my Ex. With a positive mindset I can enter the year, and end with a positive year, and I'm ready!

School, Blackjacks and Some serious issues lol

SCHOOL BEGINS! and i'm ready for it, these three weeks will zoom by fast, and i am one to want to be really prepared. Ok so besides that i have this Blackjack 2 and i'm in love with it, it will be my business partner until i can updrage to a blackberry ;D. Anyways, something that is bothering me the most is people, specifically those that believe they know everything and that they should tell everyone that they do. It's disturbing to me how, people, specifically females can flip flop between friends. They dog their first friends out, when a misunderstanding happens that they dislike, or feel threatened by and never speak to them, but have the decency to speak about them. Then 'poof' they're cool again! How do you do this? I'm confused, I've been through this before, and I've picked up on these peoples (lol) pattern, and it's not a healthy habit. Be consistent, its scary to me, because I know nothing about this, I know how to be true to my friend, I speak the truth, and yeah we may not agree on something or we may fallout, but we don't just fall off the map, and then mysteriously hop back on it again. Idk, it annoys me, how people never really see the true person until they have to deal with them directly. Everyone can be buddy buddy or bff's , biffles, until they have to stay with them, or directly deal with them, and if you can't hold it out through it all, then what kind of "bff" are you!? A "friend" of mine told they that they can't keep up with me anymore, and their tired of having to figure out whats wrong with me...then what kind of friend are you to me!?

Seizing the Day!

Nope not at all, there's much more I should be doing to seize the day, but I'm going to try and make it productive I guesS. I woke up with a positive mentality, and I'm ready to go. It always helps when you actually get somethings accomplished the eveing before. I''m hoping that I can get my business together, by the Summer. My motivation is getting my business license, and getting my camera! Once that's in place I hope I can get it together afterwards. I have a clear goal and plan, and I know it won't happen right away, but i'm hoping it's a success! See can't you tell the glowing positivity! As far as school goes...well I'm really going to have to prioritize, and some things that are not important, may have to go like mr.righ (aww) but we'll see. He's causing me to reallly question it, and ontope of some other things lol, which of course come with a story, but anyways, that's how i'm feeling this morning, and look out for MoniQue Deft real soon!

Too Long

This may be a little Tacky! but check out my Tumblr blog, you may find its a bit similar! LOL Tumblr
I’ve been away too long! But I’m back! Broke, Bummed and I have a date on Wenesday! This is my life, the last time I wrote I had a job, I have no idea what to call it now! They never call me in they meaning the koreans, never call me in to work, I’ve only worked two measely days, but from 3pm-9pm and 2pm-9pm so I ‘m hoping I do get paid for that! I’m reckless with money! I’ve learned aarrgh!! And I’m learning to do better, my picture, …i bought that hair, isn’t it nice! And I bought those glasses, that’s why I’m worried about the date because I will only have $30 to my name when I could of had $65! But the glasses I HAD to have along with the HAIR so i would look amazing on the date *sigh*. Anyways Mr. Right is likely to take care of everything on this date buuttt being the independent and stubborn woman I am, I would prefer to do it on my own! Swipe my own Debit Card to happiness! It’s sad how my life is going at the moment, and I’m unhappy, I’m thinking about selling my i-pod on ebay for some quick cash! That’s awful though! I could never sell my i-pod its my haven. But anyways that’s my current update. Later!
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Drake's New Mixape

Get Drake's New Mixtape Here! I havn't listened to it yet, but I certainly have downloaded it! I'm a fan of Drake or Aubrey Graham aka Jimmy Brooks or Wheelchair Jimmy. Recently signed a deal with Young Money, and everyone was shocked like that wasn't the move lol. But him and Lil Wayne probably stay together (not really) but that's the type of relationship they may have. Also I really like Jeremih (Birthday Sex) new CD, its really good for his first, I've had it on repeat for the past week! I generally like most of his songs, except for one My Sunshine, the songs really depressing lol, but it's all good, all his other songs are really good! I would name the best songs to skip to, but that would be the whole album! A lot of people had some crap to talk but I mean it's his first , and in my opinion it was pretty good! Go check that out too! I may be able to get the full album download too,....absolutely free!! SO CHECK BAK HERE FOR THAT JEREMIH CD!!

Troubles of a Designer

people say some interesting things, i can’t stand ignorant comments, i’m sorry that’s just me..a few words that spill out your mouth can truly determine where your heads at…i guess i’m disgusted at the fact that that statement left this person’s mouth, but its whatever, only a few more months of this nonsense, and i will be back at the only consistent home i will ever have. I can’t wait until i go back to school 3 wonderful hours away from where I am at now, my philosophy “not too far, but far enough” ! Anyways, mr.guy has asked for a “me&him” day, and with anything new, i’m so nervous. 1. I have to run this day by my mom, and she is um very particular about who I talk to, so I hope the first impression is the best! and 2. The actual day…just going to be myself, a nervous wreck lol, and hopefully it will all smooth out. I hope that I am comfortable around, because if i’m not i don’t know what will happen. I can talk a whole lot, but in person, especially meeting someone for the first time, i am a mute. I just thought about this logo i’m doing for somebody, and I’m so frusterated, I mean I’m not THE best graphic designer because, i’m only 19 and i havn’t had any real training , so basically any work that I have done I’ve taught myself. So i’ve struggled and contemplated over this person’s logo, and at first I tried to talk them out of it, because I didn’t have the skills to do 3D, then I was like well its a challenge..so I accept. Then I got to working and came up with the first version of the logo, but it didn’t have any color, and was pretty flat lol. I buckled down and dished that one, sat and concetrated, and came up with a logo that is somewhat 3Dish and very colorful! I was so excited because I had faced a challenge and overcame it! And i thought i had actually done pretty well considering I have no real knowledge of anything 3D. And my clients response was “lol its cute”…my heart dropped so low…and I just became angry. The client is a guy sooo, cute is NOT an option, when its supposed to be sinsiter, mean, raw, whatever word you want to describe thats opposite of “cute”. My response is “???” and “so how do I not make it cute”….I get this back “idk”…”i failed art”…”lol,sorry”…I dismissed myself, but I was VERY upset, and VERY dissapointed, my work isn’t perfect, and i don’t profess it the best, but i try. And then on top of that he’s getting TWO logos for $60, and has already gotten another FREE, so I just want to say “f you pay me” excuse my language but on the real. He can go find someone else to create him a logo, because he certainly will not get one for $60, that’s probably unheard of in the graphic design community, I may be looked down upon in shame for my price offer, (lmao probably not…too dramatic) but I’m saying, really? so this one has urked me, very much, and i don’t even know how to approach the situation, at first I was going to ignore it, but I took it on, and now, I want to give up..
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No Words at all

Hi! I Don't have much to talk about, I went to my brothers place to go job hunting, I mean I guess i did okay. That Friday Morning I was up to about 3 am BROADCASTING! lol just talking, on Justin.tv, it was interesting at first, it was like i had invited many people into my room all at once, they were watching me live!...but anyways like i said not much to say, been away from my computer for two days, and i don't know how to act lol. Later!